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CHAPTER FOUR:

DANCE CAREER

Written by Rick Archer 

 

 
 



Age 28, February 1978

LUNCH AT Mrs. BALLANTYNE'S HOUSE
 

 

As I pulled into the Ballantyne driveway at noon, I felt pure joy at reuniting with my special benefactor.  I could not tell from the front, but I would soon learn her lot extended forever into a heavily-wooded area.  I was quite impressed by my friend's lovely River Oaks mansion.  Who would have ever guessed this woman had grown up poor?   Once I was inside, I was surprised to see the giant house was empty except for Mrs. Ballantyne and a maid who prepared our lunch.  As I looked around for signs of the seven children, Mrs. Ballantyne grinned.

"A lot has changed in the past ten years.  My children moved out long ago.  They are busy pursuing their own lives.  Now it is just my husband Jay and me.  Jay is up on the roof fiddling with a project, so it's just the two us.  Let's catch up on things!"

During lunch I was hit with a flurry of questions regarding the ten year gap since we last met.  In particular, Mrs. Ballantyne was very amused to discover I was teaching dance of all things. 

"Rick Archer, you continue to surprise me.  I never expected a St. John's student would become a dance instructor.  So tell me how on earth you ended up teaching dance lessons."

 
 



how RICK'S dance career started
 

 
Mrs. Ballantyne's request created a dilemma.  Given that Mrs. Ballantyne had inspired my spiritual journey in college, I much wanted to explain why meeting her had such a profound influence on me.  However, I was scared to death she would write me off as a lunatic if I shared my search for God. 

There had been a devastating incident during my Philosophy of Religion class in college.  One day the subject of Heaven and one-life-to-live came up.  Since I was taking an Eastern Religion course at the same time, I raised my hand and reported why I thought Reincarnation made more sense.  You have no idea the intensity of the wrath I incurred.

For the rest of the hour, I had 15 classmates remind me again and again there is no mention of Reincarnation in the Bible.  They demanded I explain what made me think the concept of Reincarnation had a shred of credibility.  During our intense argument, I realized it is impossible to "Prove" a belief.  The harsh lesson I learned was to keep my mouth shut from now on.

 

The memory of that incident was ironic considering the woman sitting across the table was the reason I had taken that Religion class to begin with.  The Supernatural overtones which overshadowed our Parking Lot conversation had set the stage for my spiritual journey.  Having spent four years in college thinking about Mrs. Ballantyne, every nerve fiber was tingling with the desire to tell her why I believed our first meeting had been a Miracle.  I wanted to know if she agreed with me.  But I could not risk having Mrs. Ballantyne laugh in my face like the boys in the Religion class.  Which was a shame because the only reason we were together today had been yet another preposterous coincidental meeting at the dance studio.  Unwilling to open the door to a scary subject, I decided to stick to Reality. 

"Mrs. Ballantyne, I was damaged goods when I graduated from St. John's.  I would have greatly preferred an easier childhood.  However, where would I have been without St. John's?  The only reason I graduated with any sanity at all was due to your help and teachers who stepped forward to do the job my parents were incapable of.  These exceptional people gave of their heart without any expectation of reward.  However, there was only so much they could do.  I left St. John's with a sense of inferiority I could not shake."

"But Rick, you graduated as an Honor student.  You were fifth in a class of 50 smart students.  Why would you feel inferior?"

"Academically I could hold my own.  But socially I was a lost cause.  I was an only child who grew up without a clue how to make friends.  It did not help that I remained excluded from the social circles my classmates operated in."

"I did not know that, but it makes sense.  Did anyone bully you or insult you?"

"No, not really.  I suppose there were things said behind my back, but I do not recall a classmate ever saying an unkind word to my face.  Mostly they just left me alone."

"Did things improve in college?"

"No, things got worse.  College was tough.  The loneliness was oppressive.  I got my feelings hurt by a girl named Emily in my Freshman year and remained gun-shy after that.  I might add that going to an all-men's school made meeting girls very difficult.  I dated a little in my senior year, but mostly I kept to myself."

"That's interesting.  I rarely dated in college as well."

"Why was that?" I asked.

Mrs. Ballantyne laughed.  "I had the same problem as you.  I grew poor and did not have much self-esteem at the time.  I was too shy around boys, so mostly I hid from them."

I stared for a moment in disbelief.  How was it possible for the most vivacious, outgoing woman I had ever met to grow up shy?  I debated whether to ask a question, but decided to continue my story instead.

 

"For obvious reasons, I was drawn to psychology in search of solutions to my problems.  In the process I decided to become a therapist.  Although this was a noble ambition, it turned out I was unsuited for the role.  Graduate school was a disaster.  My issues with authority, my sensitivity to criticism and my sense of inferiority came back to haunt me.  One professor in particular focused a harsh spotlight on my mediocre interpersonal skills.  He threw me out after deciding I was too unhealthy to be of any use to society."

"What a terrible blow that must have been."

"Given my childhood problems, I suppose I should not have been surprised at my dismissal.  It hurts to admit, but given how screwed up I was, I suppose the professor made the right decision.  Nevertheless, I was beyond devastated.  My heart was in the right place.  If they had given me the same kind of second chance that Mr. Salls bestowed after I cheated, I very well could have rewarded their patience."

 
Mrs. Ballantyne did a double-take.  "I didn't know you cheated.  What happened?"

"Oh, I wish you hadn't asked that question.  I am so ashamed of myself.  Do you really want to know?"

Seeing her nod, I shared the story.   "I was angry at the world.  My father had just told me he would not to honor his long-standing promise to pay my way to college.  In addition, a friend told me my father's huge salary would make it tough to get a scholarship.  But the thing that really threw me for a loop is when I discovered the tuition at the University of Texas was only $1,000 per year."

"Why was that a problem?"

"Because the only two schools I had applied to cost $5,000 per year.  If I had applied to the University of Texas like I should have, I had enough money from the grocery store job to pay my own way.  I was so mad at myself.  If I had an ounce of sense, I would not have been in the financial fix I was in.  I could not believe how stupid I had been."

"Does this have anything to do with Katina winning the Jones Scholarship?"

I laughed out loud.  "Mrs. Ballantyne, as always you are way too perceptive.  So the answer is yes.  Katina's victory put the final nail in the coffin.  However the cheating episode came first.  I was so mad at the world that I lost my temper and decided to cheat on a German test as an act of protest."

"A German test?  Didn't you win an award that year as the best German student?"

I rolled my eyes.  "You're not making this any easier."

Mrs. Ballantyne smiled.  "Okay, go on."

"I didn't cheat on the whole test, just a limited part.  There was a major problem at home that prevented me from studying one night, so I called in sick the next day because I was not prepared.  As I studied at home the next day, I was in such a bad mood that I decided to cheat on the section where we were supposed to memorize the names of famous German authors and their books.  I decided this was literature, not German, and I did not want to waste my time.  I knew I would be allowed to take the test the next day in a room by myself, so I decided to only cheat on 10% of the test for the simple reason that I felt like it.  Unfortunately I got caught."

Mrs. Ballantyne gasped.  "Oh my goodness.  What happened?"

I explained how a boy named Bob Franklin walked in at the exact moment I opened my book.  Mrs. Ballantyne looked at me quizzically.  She could tell there was more to the story, but I made sure to refrain from adding what a remarkable coincidence it had been for Bob to walk into an isolated room with the door closed at the EXACT MOMENT I OPENED MY BOOK.  Sidestepping the Supernatural angle, I quickly added that Mr. Salls had chosen to overlook my indiscretion. 

"So that's what you mean by Mr. Salls giving you a second chance."

"Yes."

"But what does that have to do with Katina?"

"The scholarship she won represented my last chance to be able to pay the exorbitant tuition at Georgetown.  At the time I could not understand why Mr. Salls would give this scholarship to someone from a wealthy home when he knew full well how poor I was.  So I concluded he gave the scholarship to Katina instead of me as punishment for my crime.  I went off the deep end with self-hatred."

"Oh my, that's quite a story.  Did you feel any animosity towards Katina?"

"No, of course not.  I blamed Mr. Salls, but mostly I blamed myself.  Fortunately, things worked out.  Two weeks later I got a surprise scholarship of my own."

Mrs. Ballantyne smiled.  "I am glad things worked out for you.  But I do have a question.  Do you think Mr. Salls did the right thing to overlook your cheating incident?"

"That's a tough question.  I am grateful that Mr. Salls trusted there was more to me than my awful behavior.  Since he knew I was an excellent German student, I guess he decided to give me the benefit of the doubt.  That probably explains why he took such a gentle approach.  To answer your question, I think he did the right thing at the time.  Yes, I was a bitter kid, but not towards St. John's.  I loved my school with all my heart.  However further down the road I am sorry to say his leniency backfired.  I was allowed to graduate with my rebellious attitude intact.  That forced me to pay a heavy price when my big mouth got me thrown out of graduate school." 

"How did you feel about that?"

"I was very bitter at the time.  However, I have come to see my time at Colorado State as a mixed blessing.  As much as I hated Dr. Fujimoto's barrage of criticism, he made me realize something had to be done about my shortcomings if I was ever to amount to anything.  So I decided to see a therapist during my remaining time in the Psychology program.  Together we began the long process of repairing the damage from childhood.  In other words, yes, I was crushed to fail on such an epic scale, but at least my time with the therapist gave me a fighting chance to face my next set of obstacles."

"Is that when you became a dance instructor?"

"No, actually it took me almost four years to recover from my mistakes in Colorado.  To be honest, I owe my dance career to a horrible woman named Vanessa.  While I was in graduate school, Vanessa decided to two-time me after her old boyfriend lured her back into his arms.  Vanessa already had plans to move back home to resume her education.  Since she only had a month left in Colorado, she decided it was easier to lie about what was going on than break up with me."

"How did you learn the truth?"

"I suspected something was wrong all along, but did not have the guts to confront her.  Fortunately, after Vanessa left town, her girlfriend Jackie told me the whole story.  It was especially cruel to fall in love with such a treacherous woman.  Considering how little dating experience I had when I met Vanessa, I had no idea how to guard my heart.  Upon my return to Houston, I felt like a loser in every way imaginable.  Failure in love, failure in career.  I was locked in the worst depression since my crisis back in high school."

 

"You said Vanessa was related to your dance career."

"Yes, but in a very strange way.  I never dated in high school.  Given my limited experience with dating, I had long struggled with the issue of approaching women I did not know.  Struggling to regain my confidence following my graduate school disaster, I wondered if there was some book that might offer advice.  On a visit to a bookstore, I ran across a used paperback with a weird title, The Mistress Book

To be honest, it was a fairly disgusting book.  Mostly the author wanted to boast about his prowess as a womanizer.  I was about to put it back when I noticed the author had dedicated his book to a woman named Vanessa with the caption "Who's sorry now?"  I figured anyone who hates women named Vanessa was a friend of mine, so I bought the book.  As it turned out, the book contained an interesting suggestion.

"The fastest polite way for a man to get a woman he doesn't know in his arms is ask her to dance." 

Given my frightening lack of experience around women dating back to college and high school, the thought of using dance as a way to place a woman in my arms was a very enticing fantasy.  I signed up for dance lessons one week later.  Four years later these lessons turned into a position as a teacher." 

 

 

Mrs. Ballantyne smiled.  "That is quite a story, Rick.  So you owe your dance career to a cheating woman and a strange coincidence."

"Yes, but it wasn't easy.  Just my luck, I was a slow learner.  Fortunately, St. John's had taught me the value of persistence, so I continued despite my lack of progress.  Over the next three years, I took one lesson after another.  During this time I realized that my job as a social worker was going nowhere.  Seeking professional advice on what career to pursue, the lady I spoke to took a shine to me.  Over the next two years, we worked on my unresolved problems from graduate school.  One step at a time the chip on my shoulder began to heal.  At the same time as I was learning to dance, I was also growing up.

Last year my Disco line dance teacher got a surprise opportunity to spend the summer in Washington, D.C.  She knew I was not all that great a dancer, but since I knew her patterns like the back of my hand, I was the only person she knew to ask on short notice to substitute.  Four months ago I was asked to teach at the studio you met me at this morning.  On the same night I showed up for my first dance class, the owner offered me a modest part-time job teaching line dances to 10 people.  I did not ask for the job.  Nor was I very good at it.  Fortunately, however, the stakes were low.  We weren't talking "brain surgery" here.  Even a clod like me could teach line dancing without inflicting permanent damage.  I was funny and my students liked the class, so I plugged along in spite of my limitations.  But then came the bad news.  In December I was fired."

"Why were you fired?"

"The final class had only 5 people, so my boss assumed he didn't need a Disco class in the new year."

"Really?  How did you get your job back?"

"I got the luckiest break of my life.  In January Saturday Night Fever took the country by storm.  Overnight Disco students began calling his studio, so my boss changed his mind and brought me back.  Believe it or not, in the space of one month I was suddenly teaching every night of the week in addition to my day job.  Astonished by my sudden good fortune, I loved what I was doing so much, I told God I wanted to teach dance for the rest of my life."

 

At my mention of God, Mrs. Ballantyne raised an eyebrow.  Oops.  I had promised to stick to 'Reality'.  However, she remained silent, so I continued. 

"That is when I second-guessed myself.  Unsure where this new job was going, believe it or not, I questioned God's judgment.  Given my utter mediocrity as both a dancer and a teacher, maybe a career as a dance teacher wasn't such a good idea after all."   

"Uh, God, thank you for this golden opportunity, but are you sure about this?"

Mrs. Ballantyne grinned.  "Please tell me you did not argue with God."

Now it was my turn to laugh.  "Yes, I know what you're thinking.  Only Rick Archer would be stupid enough to question God.  However, I had every right to feel this way.  Good grief, it had taken me three years to become slightly better than average as a dancer.  Nor did I have any training as an instructor.  My only qualification was that I had been in the right place at the right time when the movie hit town.  This whole thing felt very weird.  It's like I tell people, I didn't choose a dance career, a dance career chose me."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I never asked to be a dance teacher.  My job was handed to me out of thin air.  Nor had I trained to be a dance teacher.  Totally unprepared for this sudden promotion, few people could have been more ill-suited.  My boss called me "The Dance Teacher who couldn't dance."  A cruel thing to say, but it was true.  Considering I was not much of a teacher and barely better at dancing than my own students, I assumed he would terminate me any day now just as my professor in Graduate School had.  But so far I've been able to keep my job." 

 

We had just finished lunch and the maid had begun cleaning up.  When Mrs. Ballantyne rose from her chair, I took this as my cue that it was time to go.  However, to my surprise, I was wrong.

"Rick, are you in a hurry?  I would like to continue our conversation."

"Sure.  I have the rest of the day free."

"Good.  Let's go into the living room."

It was now 1 pm.  Over the next three hours, Mrs. Ballantyne proceeded to tell me her life story.

 

 


the hidden hand of god

Chapter FIVE:  MARIA'S LIFE STORY
 

 

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