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MYSTERY OF THE
TEXAS TWOSTEP
CHAPTER THREE:
THE VICTORIAN ERA
Written by Rick
Archer
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Rick
Archer's Note:
My previous
book, Year of Living
Dangerously, ended at Labor Day 1979. I have a
choice. I can begin the Mystery of the Texas Twostep
at that spot or I can offer a review.
Everyone knows
the frustration of coming into a movie that is halfway
over, especially if the film has a complicated plot. Should I assume that everyone has read my previous book?
Or do I throw in a recap to bring new Readers up to
speed?
At the risk of
boring loyal Readers of my previous book, I think a recap is
in order.
Victoria was the star of my
previous book. Since she is a central figure in this book
as well, a review of Victoria's story will help new Readers make
better
sense of the strange developments to take place after Labor
Day.
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Life can only be understood backwards; but it
must be lived forwards.
-- Soren Kierkegaard
It must be
disconcerting to encounter two totally different versions of
Rick Archer. In a sense, there are two writers of this
book. One is the hapless fool who stumbles from one
misadventure to the next. The other is the somewhat
wiser old man who breaks in periodically to put things in perspective. That is why I admire
Kierkegaard's quote so much. The Reader can assume the
'hapless fool' is Rick Archer living his life forward
while the 'wiser old man' is Rick Archer looking
backwards.
The
phrase
'Time will Tell'
refers to the curious nature
of cause and effect. Sometimes the 'Effect' is
known immediately, but with less dramatic events such as a
chance meeting,
there may be a
serious delay before the significance is understood via the
gift of Hindsight.
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In the case of
Victoria, I was dealing with the most complicated woman I
had ever met. Sometimes she was brilliant, other
times she made the worst decisions imaginable.
Why is she so important? Victoria shaped the course of my life
in profound ways. Much of what I write about Fate is based on
observations of her behavior.
However, I did not reach reach these conclusions as the
behaviors occurred, but through reflection after Victoria left my
life. That is why
I
feel fortunate to be in my 70s as I write about her. Many
of the stories I tell about Victoria did not make a bit of
sense at the time, but later in life I was able to gain a
better perspective.
I regret to say
that I am not a mind reader. It was difficult to
comprehend Victoria's strange behavior. As you read my
story you will see what I mean. Perhaps someday
Victoria will write her own memoir. Trust me, I will
be the first to buy a copy. I say this because there
is no guarantee that my interpretation of her motives or
mindset is correct. So let me begin my story
with an apology to Victoria. There is a possibility
that I misunderstood her. All I can say is
I tried my best and that my account
of what happened is truthful from my point of view. As
for her point of view, maybe someday Victoria will compare
notes. I would like that.
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LABOR DAY 1978 TO LABOR
DAY 1979
THE VICTORIAN ERA |
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There is a
saying that behind every successful man is the woman who put
him there. That is true for me. I am in great
debt to
Victoria. She taught me how to run
a dance studio. The story of The Texas Twostep would not make a bit of
sense without her.
The Victorian
Era began with Victoria's
appearance at my dance studio on the
day after Labor Day 1978. One
year later, her
reign as the Supreme Diva of Disco ended on
Labor Day Weekend 1979. Her demise was caused by
extreme marital difficulties and problems caused by
Urban Cowboy.
Saturday
Night Fever debuted in January 1978. I spent
the first eight months of 1978 building my Disco dance program
completely on my own. I was very proud of
my accomplishment at the time. However, the day Victoria appeared,
I discovered I still had a lot to learn. She became my
mentor.
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She
comes out of the sun in a silk dress
Running like a watercolor in
the rain
Don't bother asking for
explanations
She'll
just tell you that she came
In the year of the Cat
-- Al Stewart
Victoria was
like the cat who walks uninvited into your house and makes
itself right at home. Victoria was a stranger when
she joined my class in progress on the Tuesday after Labor Day
1978. She watched for five
minutes, then proceeded to offer suggestions on how to
help the men
improve at partner dancing. I was not sure what she
meant, so Victoria grabbed me and made me demonstrate her
idea in front of the whole class. The students
were impressed. So was I. At the end of class
Victoria asked if she could be my official assistant on
Tuesday. Given the dramatic impact she had made on
my class tonight, I quickly assented.
By the end of the month my new assistant
was more important to the dance program than me. Did I
object? No. Why not? Victoria was
unbelievable.
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It is
important to note that Victoria was married. Michael,
her husband, was a highly respected cancer researcher.
He was also a nice guy. I liked him a lot.
One month after we met, Victoria signed Michael up
for dance classes. That is how I got to know him. They
had one child, a beautiful home, and lots of friends.
Michael understood that Victoria felt neglected.
Over the past few years, Michael had put in long hours at the laboratory while
Victoria sat at home twiddling
her fingers. Well aware that Victoria felt
like she was wasting her life away, Michael was
supportive of Victoria's initial interest in the dance
studio. He was pleased to see Victoria use her
love of dance and socializing to snap out of her funk.
From the
moment she walked in,
Sunshine Victoria treated my dance program as her own.
Not once did she ask to be paid. She did this on a
voluntary basis because she loved to dance. She
also thrived
on the attention she received. What was her
motivation? Victoria was tired of being a stay-at-home Mom all
the time. She loved organizing social events
and dance parties, something I was not very good at.
Sensing my woeful inadequacy in such an important area,
Victoria adopted my studio as her hobby and put her
prodigious talent to good use. For the first
time in ages, Victoria felt like she was making an
important contribution. And contribute she did.
Over the final four months of 1978, Victoria doubled
the size of my dance program.
Beautiful
and charismatic, Victoria turned heads wherever she
went. Victoria was tall, 5' 7", exquisitely well-curved with brown eyes and
long blonde hair. In high
school Victoria modeled and entered beauty contests.
She knew all the latest dance steps, was a
cheerleader and Prom Queen. As one might gather, Victoria was
comfortable in the limelight. She was born to be
popular.
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In January
1979 Victoria picked up where she left off before
Christmas. Over
the next four months Victoria doubled the size of my program again. Thanks to her, I
now owned
the largest Disco program in the city.
However, I feared it could all be gone in a
flash. I had become far too
dependent on Victoria's help. Although I
taught all the classes and people made their
checks out to me, Victoria was the reason my
students kept signing up for more classes.
What was her secret? Right from the start, Victoria understood I was in the 'Boy Meets Girl'
business. This embarrassed me no end.
Why didn't I see this myself? Silly me, I
thought all I had to do was teach dance.
Victoria
was a master at the social side of my
occupation. She
scheduled huge meet and greet parties that
allowed students from classes on
different nights of the
week to dance together. Victoria was sheer
magic with her emphasis on the 'Slow
Dance leads to Romance' angle. Thanks
to Cupid and Victoria, people began falling in
love right and left.
Prior to the Victorian Era, people
took
dance lessons from me to meet the love of their life
'at the Disco'. Thanks to Victoria,
people discovered they could also meet the love of
their life 'at Rick Archer's dance studio'.
Our classes ran two months at a time. When their current class
ended, the
thought of meeting their next lover in
dance class gave
students an excellent reason to sign up for
the follow-up class.
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Not
once did I breathe a word about 'Contracts',
standard procedure for most dance studios. Nor
did I need to use any sort of strong-arm
persuasion. Our students got in the habit
of signing up for the next 'group class'
of their own free will. Why?
Singles were always the core of my program. Although learning new patterns was
a fun challenge, friendship was the real
attraction.
The chance to continue seeing their friends plus
the chance to find their next love interest
was
the major incentive for singles to continue.
For some students, taking classes and going out dancing with
their friends became so important they would wrap their
lives around my studio.
The funny thing
about solutions is that they always look so obvious after
you know the answer. I wish I could take credit for
the 'friendship' and 'romance' insight, but that would not be
truthful. The credit goes to Victoria.
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I
had mixed feelings about Victoria. One part of
me was full of gratitude. I would have
never achieved this level of success
without her help. Given my high degree of
respect, I made it a
point to watch and learn from the master. However, I
was also intimidated by her brilliance. It was
painful to realize she possessed social skills I
could only dream about.
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In my defense, there was a good reason why I was
so inept. I was only child. Due to my difficult childhood, I
grew up a
loner. Age 9 when my parents got their divorce, money
became a real problem for my mother. In order
to avoid paying her mounting overdue rent bill,
she was forced to skip out in the night once a year. I had 11 homes
in 9 years till I left for college. These constant
moves deprived me of a chance to
make neighborhood friends. Nor did I make
many friends at school. Thanks to a scholarship, I
was the token poor kid at a rich
kid's private school for nine years.
Just because I attended this posh private
school did not make me a part of the social circles
occupied by my affluent classmates.
Let me add that
a gruesome bout with acne stripped me of what little
confidence I had when it came to talking with girls. I cannot remember a
single female classmate ever
giving me a second glance other than to shudder.
Pretty much ignored for four years, I
graduated without a single date in high school.
I would pay dearly for my lack of experience in college.
I dated
very little in college. Since
Johns Hopkins was a men's school at the time, finding girls
to date was always a serious challenge. I
expanded my search by visiting other colleges in the area, but didn't get
very far. In particular I found it very
difficult to approach college girls who were
strangers. Due to my lack of experience, the gift of small talk,
friendship
and flattery escaped me. I botched so many early attempts that I
developed an intense
fear of rejection. As my frustration
mounted, I gave up
and concentrated on my studies instead.
By repeating my mistake of remaining a
loner in college, I fell further
behind my peer group in social maturity and dating
experience.
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I
entered the 'Clinical Psychology' program at
Colorado State University. I planned to become a therapist,
but immediately ran into serious trouble. After spending
23 years as a moody loner, I was great at academics, but
clueless at social interaction. The head of my department took a
dim view of my thin skin, my poor listening skills,
and my bad habit of disagreeing
with him during
class. Concluding my social acuity was too mediocre to be of much use as a therapist, he
sent me packing after one year. My professor
implied that I flunked out due my shortcomings
as a human being. Seriously, how would you feel if
someone said you were too emotionally disturbed to be of
much use to your fellow man? That was tough to handle.
I also managed to get my heart broken thanks to an evil girlfriend.
Failure in love, failure in
career, I was a basket case when I returned to Houston. I
was age 24 at the time. Starting with my
Freshman year in high school, over the past ten
years I could count all my girlfriends on one
hand. There was Emily in my Freshman year
of college. She ran off with a rich
sophomore after one month. There was
Arlene, the one bright star in my otherwise murky
past. She stayed with me for nine months.
I was an idiot to leave her behind, but I wanted
to take my chances in graduate school. As
punishment, I met Vanessa, the single most
deceitful woman I would ever meet in my life.
We all have our broken heart story, right?
I was so crushed by her betrayal, I was never
the same during my final months at Colorado
State. On my long drive back to Houston, I
reviewed my track record with women.
Pretty grim. Other than Arlene, my luck
with pretty girls was beyond abysmal.
Thanks to my fondness for gallow's humor, I gave
my bad luck a name, the Epic Losing Streak.
Ten years and counting, no end in sight.
Upon
my return to Houston, I was so distraught over
my problems in graduate school that I found
myself unable to work up the courage to look for
a new girlfriend. For two months
all I did was sit in my apartment too fearful to
go to a club and face further rejection.
One day I ran across a self-help book with an
interesting suggestion. Let's say I spotted a
girl, but was too afraid to speak to her.
The book said the fastest
polite way to get her in my arms was ask her to dance.
Considering I was pretty much speechless around
pretty girls, that suggestion was the
light at the end of the tunnel. Due to my
desperation, I began dance lessons in 1974.
Always fearful of rejection, I hoped to use
dance as a way to get to First Base.
Unfortunately,
my Dance Project failed to work like I had hoped.
The book had said the dance angle would only work if I
was a good dancer. It turned out that I was a slow
learner. I continued to strike out with women due
to my acute shyness. However I stuck with the
lessons anyway since it had become a hobby. As I
am fond of saying, even a turtle gets somewhere if you
give it enough time.
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After a period of three and a half years I
was finally competent. Not a great dancer, mind
you, but I had learned enough to be offered a part-time job as a
Disco
teacher. Although I had a knack for teaching, I
had trouble connecting to students on a personal level
due my arrested social development. That is when Victoria
came to my rescue. Although my
social skills remained limited, she
had more than enough popularity for the two of us.
What
would happen if Victoria left the studio? Perish
the thought. I was no match for her skills Unfortunately,
in December
something happened that left her badly rattled. Victoria had arranged a
huge Christmas Party at our favorite Disco.
I estimate 350 people visited that night.
To Victoria's dismay, a woman named Joanne stole the show with
her flashy partner dancing. Considering Joanne was dancing with
me at the time, Victoria was apoplectic. This was
treachery! Here I
was, the beneficiary of all her valuable assistance.
After all the work she did to organize this party, it
drove her crazy to see me help some stranger steal her glory.
Although I meant no harm, Victoria had a tough
time forgiving me. That was a turning point.
Victoria was never the same after that incident.
After the Holidays, Victoria took a turn for the worse. Starting in
January 1979, Victoria abused her authority by taking an unhealthy interest in my love life.
Victoria's reign of terror began with Joanne. She
was my Monday night assistant as well as the best female
dancer at the studio. Our dance students met at the
Pistachio Club every Friday night, yet another
one of Victoria's many bright ideas. Crowds
varied from 70-100. Whenever Joanne and I danced, our students lined
the floor to watch us. Joanne made things worse by
letting the world know she had a serious crush on me.
Given that Victoria expected the Disco Ball to revolve
around her and no one else, she could barely control her
temper. Worse, Victoria feared being replaced if I
were to start dating Joanne. Nonsense. Given
Victoria's genius at promoting the business, I would be an
idiot to replace my superstar with this meek, unworldly young lady. For some reason Victoria did not
seem to realize she had nothing to worry about. Instead she became intensely paranoid.
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Victoria also had her claws out for Patricia, my
glamorous girlfriend.
Perhaps the Reader raises an eyebrow. How exactly
does a young man who has confessed to a lifetime of
incompetence end up dating a beauty
like Patricia? To my great surprise ,
here in Year 14 of my Epic Losing Streak, my recent success
as a dance
teacher worked wonders for my confidence.
Surrounded by smiling women at the studio, I made great strides
in my skill with women during 1978. Now I was ready
for Patricia, the toughest romantic challenge of my life.
Patricia was the mirror
image of the poised, highly intelligent young ladies
I had gone to school with at St. John's. Born to
prosperity, Patricia was a former debutante who aspired to marry
a wealthy husband.
Considering I was not particularly well-paid, what on earth was
Patricia doing with me? It was a fluke, a very curious accident.
When we met at the
studio, Patricia was surprised to discover I was just as educated as her. Even better, the
moment she learned I had gone to a rich kids school for nine
years, Patricia incorrectly assumed I too was rich.
This was a perfectly logical
mistake. All the other men she had met from St.
John's had been wealthy. By the time she learned
the truth, Patricia liked me too much to cut me loose
like she should have. Instead Patricia decided to
make me rich. Taking note of my excellent
education, Patricia did everything in her power to
persuade
me to give up teaching dance and become a lawyer instead.
When I resisted, fireworks ensued. Since
we were well-matched in many ways, we might have
overcome this issue if Victoria had not constantly
interfered. My relationship with Patricia
was strange to say the least.
A rocky one as well.
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Imagine my dilemma. Here at the
start of 1979 I had three women chasing me. I was
reminded of the lyrics from 'Take it Easy', a
song by the Eagles.
I'm
a-runnin' down the road trying to loosen my load
I've got seven women on my mind
Four that wanna own me, two that wanna stone me
One says she's a friend of mine
Referring to my troublesome
threesome as the 'Temptation Triangle', I did my
best to play them against each other. My dangerous
game of Paper, Scissors and Rock worked fairly well
until the day came when Victoria decided to play dirty.
Why did Victoria
resent Joanne and Patricia so much? Due to her
unhealthy obsession with my love life,
at first I assumed jealousy was the reason.
However I changed my mind. Popularity and
universal acclaim was her real goal, not me. Using her
ability to organize large dance parties, Victoria
was always the center of attention. This is
how she built my program into a juggernaut.
In the process
Victoria accomplished her objective to become the
Supreme Diva of Disco. She was
widely
admired for her beauty, dance ability and
vivacious personality. Now we come to the
Mystery. Even
though Victoria
had all the fame and acclaim a woman could hope
for, she feared losing her throne.
Why? It started with 'Camelot', my
nickname for the studio's weekly get-together at the
Pistachio Club on Fridays.
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Camelot
was a good example of Victoria's genius because it
maximized the program's Boy Meets Girl potential.
Students from my various weeknight classes were
invited to meet for an evening of dance and
romance. Back when I was her bumbling, stumbling sidekick, no woman bothered to give me a
second glance. Now, thanks in large part to
Victoria's help, I was a star in my own right. A solid year of
non-stop dancing plus private dance lessons had worked wonders. I
had become a top-flight performer
who commanded the attention of a legion of single
women. In addition, thanks to watching Victoria's
social skills like a hawk over several months, I was
starting to catch on. Age 29 I was surrounded by
women on a nightly basis. For the first time, women viewed me as
someone interesting to date, maybe even marriage
material. It had taken me quite a while to reach
my potential, but better late than never.
Now that
my popularity rivaled hers, Victoria realized her
tutelage had backfired. Having shed my sense
of inferiority, I now held the Keys to her Kingdom.
Victoria felt insecure because she needed my
cooperation in order to succeed. Her paranoia
made no sense because I needed her to succeed as much as she needed me.
What kept Victoria from
seeing that her position as Queen of the studio was totally secure?
Beats the heck out of me. I cannot
tell you how many times I tried to reassure this
beautiful, multi-talented woman
that I had no desire to kill the golden goose.
However, it did no good. Victoria continued to
feel threatened.
Joanne and Patricia had
a lot to do with her fears of being replaced.
Whenever our students met at the Pistachio Club,
Patricia was the only woman more beautiful than
Victoria. Joanne was the only woman who was
the better dancer. Victoria was unwilling to
settle for second best. Furthermore,
she knew Patricia hated her and begged me to
get rid of her.
Victoria was unwilling to
tolerate any threat to her throne.
Fearful
that Patricia would manipulate me against her,
Victoria struck first. She went about eliminating
Patricia by spreading vicious gossip. And while she
was at it, she used her gossip ability to get rid
of Joanne too.
This
led to
an ugly surprise. Once her two rivals were gone,
Victoria was stunned to see other women line up to
take their place. This caused Victoria
to panic. Fearful of being replaced by a woman
who posed an even greater threat, Victoria decided something had to be done.
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Throughout
high school and college, I had a fear that women saw me
as a creepy loser. When this fear was reinforced
by my demise in graduate school, it led to my acute fear of rejection
when I returned to Houston. I turned to dance lessons in search of a cure. To my
dismay, my solution failed to work. I was not a natural dancer
by any stretch of the imagination, so progress was
slow. But I thought it might work someday, so I
stayed with it. Thank goodness I persisted.
When I became a dance teacher, my
new career
worked wonders for my confidence.
Dancing six
nights a week throughout 1978 helped me develop into one
of the best Disco dancers in the city. It had
taken four years to reach this point, but finally the ladies began to take notice.
When the
studio met at the dance club on Fridays, there I
was showing off.
It is a well-known fact that
women are attracted to excellence.
Using the dance floor as my stage, I could tell by the
smiles of appreciative young ladies that they liked what
they saw. I
began to feel attractive for the first time in my
life. This was the
moment I realized
I would never have trouble meeting
women again. It was an amazing discovery.
Who would have ever guessed that learning to dance would
one day cure 14 years of insecurity around beautiful
women?
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Unfortunately, I was not the only one who noticed the
change. I believe it was my unexpected emergence
that unsettled Victoria the most. Even if she got
rid of Patricia and Joanne, there seemed to be no end to
other potential rivals. Not only were these
attractive women interested in me, they were SINGLE.
To her dismay, this was the moment Victoria realized her
status as a married woman left her at a serious
competitive disadvantage. Her wedding ring
had become her Achilles Heel.
So what did
Victoria decide? I believe she decided to have
an affair with me. If this was true, then why?
This is shaky ground, so let me tread lightly. My
best guess is that Victoria wished to prevent a
phenomenon known as 'bedroom talk'. Worst
case scenario, let's say my new girlfriend was a dance
major in college. She was attracted to me for any
variety of reasons. Maybe she was looking for a dance partner
to enter contests, perhaps work for me, maybe as a good
companion. As I basked in the glow of love, perhaps I
could be persuaded to throw Victoria overboard and let
my new honey inherit her throne. Since Victoria was
unwilling to chuck her marriage away, having an affair
would eliminate bedroom talk.
Do I know this for a fact?
Yes, but not at first. Victoria was not one to
blatantly state her intentions. However, the day
came when she pointedly suggested we have an affair. There were three stages.
Stage One, Victoria tolerated Joanne and Patricia's
place at the studio. However, she constantly
meddled and made things difficult for me and the two
women. In Stage Two, Victoria decided to clean
house. She was a master at using the telephone to
turn public opinion against Joanne and Patricia. A
stay-at-home mother, Victoria amused herself by talking
to her legion of studio girlfriends during the day.
Her malignant gossip stirred up so much hostility that
timid
Joanne could not cope. She left the studio in
March. I was angry when Victoria sent her into
exile. I had a soft spot
for Joanne.
Patricia got
the same treatment, but refused to quit. This
led to Stage Three. Despite Patricia's presence, in May
Victoria announced she loved me. Frightened, I
asked her to back off, and so she did. Were there
sparks between us? Yes. We had started as
friends, but once Victoria began to pursue me, I was
sorely tempted to cooperate. For the record,
my conscience did not want Victoria. Now let me contradict myself
and admit my libido wanted Victoria. Of course I wanted
Victoria! I also wanted Sophia Loren and Raquel Welch.
There are certain women any red-blooded man would
desire. Victoria was one of them. So, as we probe
the depths of my mind, I admit I was strongly attracted to
Victoria. Nor did I feel guilty about my attraction. To me, it was
perfectly natural to desire a woman as beautiful and
talented as Victoria. However, at the same time I did not
covet another man's wife, especially a man I liked.
At the end
of June, Victoria tried a new tactic. Ignoring
the fact that Patricia was still in the picture, Victoria announced
that her
husband had given her permission to seek a relationship
outside their marriage. She referred to this as her
'European Arrangement'.
"I read an
article that suggests 33% to 50% of French marriages
include discrete affairs. The tacit, but
widely-accepted rules state that as long as the players
promise
their affairs will remain invisible, it is permissible."
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At that thought,
I began to tremble. Victoria possessed considerable allure.
Under ordinary circumstances, I would dearly love to take
her in my arms. That said, I was dead set
against having an affair.
First and foremost, I
respected Michael too much to do this to him. I
did not believe for a moment that he had given her
permission. Furthermore, my childhood had been ruined
by my father's mistress. Why do you think
my father suddenly wanted a divorce? The moment
Dad
married the bitch [pardon my French], she persuaded him to abandon me. Meanwhile, my mother had a nervous breakdown. There I was, 9 years old, an unstable
mother and no father. More or less on my own
from that point on, I turned into a moody loner with
low self-esteem. Now you know why they threw me
out of graduate school. I was too screwed up to be
of much help to anyone. Thanks, Dad.
Victoria had
a daughter named Stephanie. Realizing Stephanie
could very well face the same trauma that had ruined my
childhood, I told Victoria I refused to have an affair.
That is when Victoria changed tactics.
"I am not
sure my marriage is worth saving. Michael isn't
sure either. He and I are leaving this
afternoon for our Fourth of July trip. We have
agreed to have a long talk at some point. When I
return from my trip,
I will explain what we have decided to do about our
marital problems. But first I want to make sure
of your interest because I expect to be free soon."
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"[Before
leaving her husband],
first she wanted to confirm my interest."
I did not see
that one coming. Victoria's declaration that she
expected to be free soon hit like a tidal wave. Hmm.
What would I do if Victoria separated from her husband? Caught off-guard, I said something foolish.
"There will be
no sneaking around, but if you
decide to separate from her husband, yes, I would pursue
a relationship. In fact, if things work out, you are welcome to
move in with me."
In Hindsight,
that was a pretty dumb thing to say. In my defense, I was not the first man to ever
have his conscience and libido locked in a vicious civil war.
Victoria's surprising declaration led to one of the great mysteries of my life.
While she was gone on her vacation, I did a lot of
thinking. Whenever I was not lusting for Victoria, I wondered why
we couldn't just be friends. I suspected
Patricia was probably not 'The One'. That said,
given the parade of
women who passed through the studio, I bet I could find
someone special to replace her. As for Victoria, she had a perfectly good
husband. This was a man who by her own account had treated her well
until recently.
Okay, Michael had become increasingly grouchy at
seeing his wife gone four nights out of seven, but who could
blame him? Why not cut
back a little at the studio? In other words, 'compromise'
for the good of the marriage. This is why I
had told Victoria many times that we did not have to be romantically involved.
Just let me find a girlfriend and we can remain platonic
partners at the dance studio. She could have the studio and
her husband at the same time. It seemed like a win-win
solution for everyone involved.
Unfortunately Victoria did
not want to be 'friends'. She said she was
in love with me. Since Victoria seemed unwilling to
make her marriage work, I foolishly left the door
ajar. I would pay dearly for that mistake.
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Hindsight, I confess I did not handle Victoria's "I
expect to be free" properly.
So what if Victoria was beautiful and a great
dancer, she was a married woman. Even if Victoria
was pivotal for my business, why would I
welcome her advances? This is a very sensitive
subject, so let me explain. I did not
encourage Victoria to leave her husband. But
I knew they were having marital problems. And
why were they having problems? Because
Victoria was gone four nights out of seven to enjoy
the Disco World. So, yes, since I was a major
part of the Disco World, I was a factor.
However, in my defense, I did not encourage her to
leave her husband. That was her idea. If Victoria
wanted out, since we had so much in common, I would be foolish not to show interest.
Now for
a twist of Fate. While Victoria was gone over
the July 4th holiday, Patricia and I entered a dance
contest. When a drunk woman lost her balance
on the dance floor, she put her hand on my back
to avoid falling. Her shove
caused my elbow to catch Patricia right in the
mouth, splitting her lower lip in the process.
With her face covered in blood, I raced Patricia to the restroom. It was a bizarre accident to be
sure. Humiliated, disfigured, full of pain and deeply
frustrated, Patricia abruptly broke up with me when we reached her apartment
later that night.
Who could blame her? Thanks to Victoria's
constant meddling, our relationship had been
on life support for some time. Given that this
bizarre accident felt like a very bad omen, I
decided our breakup was for the
best.
After
the breakup, I was free to date whomever I
wished. I had a list of candidates, but
hesitated. Before starting something new with
another woman, I decided to wait
for
Victoria's return to see if she was sincere about
her promise to leave Michael. If Victoria was free,
I would be hard pressed to find a woman superior to
her. I had known Victoria for ten months at
this point.
Talented, warm, sexy, fabulous dancer, Victoria was the woman of my
dreams. Given her business sense and dance
ability, she fit my life like a glove. So, if Victoria was available, of course I was interested in dating
her. When Victoria returned to Houston after
her trip, I expected she would follow through on her
flowery promises to seek a romance. So why
start something new with another woman? Better to
wait for Victoria.
In
Hindsight, I wish I had looked for the new
girlfriend when I had a chance. When Victoria returned, she
quickly
pulled the rug out from under me.
Thanks to a stern lecture from her father during her
vacation, Victoria had developed
a strong case of Cold Feet. Victoria
claimed she was still interested in me, but needed time to
think about it. I was so angry. This felt
like the proverbial bait and switch. Promise me a
rose, lead me by the nose, then leave me hanging. Thanks a
lot. Profoundly embarrassed by her
switcheroo, I suggested we stick to being friends and
let me move on. And what did Victoria say to that?
"Oh no,
Rick, you need to stick around. My feelings
for you are too strong. You owe it to me to be
patient while I sort out my future. I would
prefer you not date anyone else."
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Victoria's Cold
Feet marked a major turning point.
Unfortunately, this was shaping up to be a classic Love-Hate
relationship. Due to my woeful inexperience at dealing
with strong
women, Victoria had a bad habit of
asserting her will over me. I disliked being
bossed around regarding the dance program. And where
did she get the nerve to tell me to avoid looking for a
girlfriend? I did not appreciate being jerked around
nor did I like being told to wait while she made up her
mind. Nor did I trust
Victoria very much. I had a hunch she
was far more interested in fooling around than
actually
leaving her husband. Plus I
was still mad at Victoria for chasing off Joanne
and Patricia.
So why didn't I simply tell her to shove off? Due to her
penchant for viciousness plus her octopus-like control of my
dance program, I feared Victoria would leave the studio if I stood up to her. This was not a good time
to be taking risks. As one Disco after another closed
thanks to the Urban Cowboy menace, I noticed
that attendance had begun to drop in June and July. I
could not help but worry what would happen if Miss Popularity left now.
For this reason I chose to appease her rather than stand up
to her.
In
mid-July Victoria dropped a
bombshell. One morning she asked me to meet her at a coffee
shop. After we sat down, she handed me something
she called her 'Husband List'. Insisting we
review this together, Victoria pulled out a
pen. She used it as a pointer to go over the
List line by line.
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Victoria said her father greatly admired
her husband. In her father's eyes,
Michael was a Prince among men while I was a
playboy/gigolo who he was certain would use her, then
discard her when I was ready.
Victoria compared my socio-economic status to that
of her husband.
I came in second.
Make that a 'distant' second.
Victoria compared the social
status of my job to her
husband.
Again I came in second.
Michael was a much-praised researcher in an
important field while I was a lowly dance
teacher on par with gypsies, tramps and thieves
(according to her father).
Victoria
compared our educational background.
I came in second.
Her husband had a doctorate, I had a bachelor's
degree.
Victoria almost added 'graduate school failure',
but bit her tongue at the last second.
I got the point.
Victoria compared our
job stability.
I came in a poor second due to
Urban
Cowboy.
I could lose my dance
job any day now.
Victoria compared our houses.
My house
finished somewhere around 100 in a two-house competition.
Victoria compared our
track record as husband.
Michael was rated as superior.
Beside my name was "does not apply".
Victoria compared our track record as father.
Michael was an
excellent father.
Beside my name was "does not apply".
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Was I superior to
Victoria's husband in any way? No, not
according to Victoria.
I was stunned by the utter cruelty of her
ambush.
I was also furious.
Although I basically agreed with
everything Victoria had written, was it really necessary
to rub these shortcomings in my face?
If Victoria
thought so little of me, then what was all this
nonsense about separating from her husband?
Stop wasting my time! Bitter
towards Victoria for deliberately humiliating me,
I slammed my hand on the table so hard I
made the coffee spill.
"Damn it, Victoria, don't you have
anything better to do than find new ways to
insult me? For crying out
loud, if Michael is so much better at
everything, then what do you want from me?
Why don't you just leave me the hell alone
and get out of my life!?"
I was ready to call it
quits right there, but Victoria said not so
fast. She used her importance at
the studio to force me to continue
discussing the possibility of a serious
relationship. I was incredulous.
Victoria had just made it clear that if I
tried to walk away, she would withdraw her
support at the studio. As I had
feared, Victoria was more than willing to
use threats to keep me in line. Well aware of
her importance to my business, my hands were
tied.
This Husband List
marked a seismic shift in my attitude
towards Victoria. I knew Victoria craved comfort, security and
wealth. I also knew Michael could provide these
things to a far greater degree than me.
So
what prevented Victoria from following
through on her
own logic? That was the Mystery. Any woman in her right mind
could see that Michael was the better
choice, so what was Victoria trying to
accomplish with this bizarre holding
pattern? "I need more time to
think..."
I was reminded of the lyrics from
a song by
Diana Ross and the Supremes.
"Set me free, why don't you, babe?
Get outta my life, why don't you, babe?
You just keep me hanging on."
What did Victoria
want? If forced to guess,
Victoria wanted to
be married to Michael and use me for
entertainment. Given that I held the
key to her Disco fantasies, I was more or
less a means to an end. I understood
that. But what I did not understand is
why Victoria felt the need to pursue a
romance. I was more than happy to make
her Disco Dreams come true on a
friendship and business basis. So why
deceive me into thinking
I was more important than I really was?
Victoria was playing a very nasty game.
However, since I saw no easy way to extricate
myself due to my economic dependency, I gritted
my teeth and reluctantly continued to play
along.
Fearing
retribution, I did not tell Victoria that
her
Husband List was the final straw. Yes,
I was sexually attracted to Victoria, but
I was not remotely in love.
I could have been in love, but I did not
trust her. Why not? BECAUSE
VICTORIA'S DECLARATION OF LOVE MADE NO
SENSE. Victoria
did me a favor with her Husband List. Everyone says that Love does not have to
make sense, but I disagreed. In my
book, temporary Love does not have to make sense,
but permanent Love does. After
reviewing the Husband List, I could not fathom a
single valid LONG TERM reason why Victoria would prefer me
over Michael. Okay, maybe she was just
looking for revenge. Maybe Michael
did something bad. Cheating?
Drinking? Gambling? Bills? Lying?
Nope. Not once in ten months had
Victoria suggested even the slightest
shortcoming. The only thing
Victoria complained about was Michael's
tendency to work too hard. I was
aghast. Of course the man works long
hours!! How else can he afford to give
Victoria her life of luxury? And look
how she repays him! Indeed, I was so
disgusted with this woman that the Husband
List marked the end to any illusion that Victoria
was the woman of my dreams. I
WOULD NEVER MARRY
THIS WOMAN.
The
thing is, I agreed with Victoria's List. Michael
was a great guy. I liked him.
And I agreed with every one of her points.
Michael provided the status, affluence and
security that Victoria craved. In
addition he was a great father. Okay,
so maybe Victoria was infatuated with me or
more likely the world I inhabited.
However, I
would never come FIRST in her mind.
At best I was 'Mistress Material'.
Or maybe we should call it
'Mattress Material'. I was unwilling to accept this role. I wanted to find a
woman who would put me FIRST. But
that would have to wait till later. Right now my priority was to protect my
dance program.
I had seen what
she did to Patricia and Joanne, so I knew
what Victoria was capable of. If I
tried to remove Victoria by force, I would
be taking a huge chance. So I had a
better idea. The Husband List made it
clear that Victoria was nowhere near as in
love with me as she claimed.
Given that Michael was the better
choice by a wide margin, I decided that sooner or later Victoria
was going to come to her senses and choose
Michael.
Rather than break it off and risk
infuriating Victoria, I decided to wait her out,
sort of like they used to do with a medieval
siege. Time was
on my side.
So what happened next?
During July and August we
entered a period known as 'Car Talk'.
Victoria was gone from
her home four nights a week. She went
dancing at the Pistachio Club
on Friday and Annabelle's on Sunday.
She also taught dance class two nights a
week. After we finished teaching on Tuesdays
and Thursdays, Victoria insisted that we go sit
in her car and talk things over. Using
me as a sounding board, Victoria would
actively discuss leaving Michael. Why
did she want to leave? Because he was
always mad at her these days.
Personally, I thought Michael had every
right to be angry. But did I say that?
No. The less said, the better.
As I listened to her endless complaints, I
tried to imagine what was going through
Michael's mind. Here we were sitting
in Victoria's car in the dark late at night.
His wife was getting home at least a half an hour
or one hour later than necessary.
It was a big car with large, soft, inviting seats. What
the hell was going on in that car almost
till Midnight? Although we never kissed or
touched during Car Talk, how was Michael
supposed to know that?
So
why did Michael
tolerate this? I don't know. We
never spoke. However, my guess is he
expected Victoria to come to her senses just
like I did. Meanwhile Victoria's
outrageous behavior stretched the limits of Michael's trust
far
beyond the breaking point. There
is a legal term, 'Alienation of affection'.
I am quite sure Michael blamed me for causing the breakdown
of their marriage. Did he have a valid point?
Yes, but probably not to the extent he
believed. I was actually on his side,
but how was Michael supposed to know that?
All I was doing was waiting her out. I did not like how Victoria
was treating Michael, but at the same
time I was facing a major threat due to
Urban Cowboy. I was not willing to jeopardize my
shaky dance program by standing up to her.
So what broke the
impasse? Nothing. In fact,
things became much more complicated in
August. Not only did Victoria do her
best to seduce me, a bizarre Dance Curse
made the tension unbearable.
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